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I wrote this devotion two years ago, and it’s very much with me today:
“All human beings come from the ground, and humankind was created out of the dust. In the fullness of his knowledge the Lord distinguished them and appointed their different ways.” –Sirach 33:10-11
When I picture myself in contact with God, I see myself in nature – sitting on the ground, cross-legged, eyes closed, holding my hands out to God’s presence. I can hear leaves rustling in the breeze, and the birds and squirrels chattering, and know that what God has created is good.
Theologian Paul Tillich spoke of God as the “ground of all being,” and that is how I relate to God – as the ground under me, from which we all spring. God supports us and steadies us, and if we feel shaky, we can actually sit down and feel God there beneath us. We can reach out to the Creator’s presence for sustenance and strength, and see it all around us in the natural world.
Today is a shaky day for me. I suspect it’s because the summer is ending. I go back to work next week, and as usual, I haven’t accomplished all that I planned to do during my time off. I’ve grown some food, but I’m hardly a farmer. I’ve done some writing, but not that much. My soon-to-be kindergartner isn’t reading at a first-grade level (yes, I’m crazy like that), and the other kids haven’t read all of the good books I wanted them to read. I lost 10 lbs-ish, but got stuck after that.
Okay, if I’m being honest there is a lot that I have accomplished, too (including spending quality time with my family), and I should be glad of that. But these transition times are hard for me and always have been.
I didn’t really recognize it as transition anxiety this morning. I just knew that I was feeling depressed and anxious and having a hard time doing anything.
But I’ve been holding on to God as the ground of my being today. When I feel anxious, I acknowledge it, and return to that connection with God. It doesn’t make the anxiety go away, but it does keep me going.